Becoming A Mom

A question for those of you who are moms: Do you remember that feeling when you first found out that you are becoming a mom? I do. For me it was an amazing feeling. A feeling of pure joy, excitement and happiness. But also mixed with fear and uncertainty. That delicious kind of sweet and sour mix.

Oh I so remember that day. When I realized that I’m pregnant with our first baby. Everything is new. Everything is exciting and after the visit to the gynecologist who confirms your pregnancy it gets even crazier. I wonder to what point the hormones are to blame already and what really is simply a feeling of joy. But then the information starts dropping in. You get aware of all the risks for you, for your baby. And as much as you want to keep positive you start thinking. You swing from vine to vine, like Tarzan, from appointment to appointment, hoping that it all will be good news again. That the ultrasound images will reveal nothing out of the ordinary. And although you keep enjoying your pregnancy (well, I sure hope you do, I was lucky enough to…) and feeling happy and excited the thoughts are there.

What if you slip, what if you can’t grab that next vine? What if the news are not good next time you see your doctor?

Although you have not given birth yet, you worry already for your child. The responsibility kicks in and everything changes.

Becoming a mom is one of the most amazing things in this world. What your body goes through and is able to do is magical and being able to give life is something that moves me massively. Realizing what is going on inside of you, what is growing there and suddenly starts moving gives your life a whole other perspective. You thought you had strong feelings before. For your partner, for your parents, for siblings, friends, maybe a pet. But this tops all of it.

The love, the fear, the worries, the joy, all of them are suddenly on a entirely different level.

Do you remember when you realized that you were pregnant? Do you remember how it made you feel?