On My Way Back

I know I post a lot of blasts from the past recently. Don’t worry, it will stop soon. I just need some time to get back into my normal schedule. The last two months have been so totally out of what I call normal and now it’s finally back to a certain schedule. I’m looking forward to it.

After having moved house and worked all of January, I traveled back to Switzerland to visit both my parents. I knew that my Dad would not be the same. I knew what kind of changes dementia can trigger. But I was not prepared to what would happen while being there.

My Dad passed away.

And I think he kind of decided to.

It was the right time.

I know specialists would not agree on it, but I seriously think that he got it. He knew I was there and he knew everything was okay. And he was able to go.

As much as I’m at peace with everything, I still need time to digest. 

Things just kind of happened over the last couple of weeks and I feel Nothing really sunk in just yet. I was simply too busy. It will hit me, I know. 

I thought I would never write a post like this. But please bare with me. I will be back, I’m on my way back. 

35 thoughts on “On My Way Back

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. But you were there, and I agree with your thoughts. I am convinced my Dad waited until my sister was NOT there to pass over, knowing she would be a drama queen and make thing so much more difficult for my Mum. Dad wasn’t alone when he died, it was peaceful and quiet with me holding one hand, and my Mum holding the other. Bro and Hubby were also at his bedside.
    It’s his birthday on the 15th, so we will light a candle in the Abbey. It’ll be 20 years since he left us on May 13th, not through dementia, but a heart attack. He is always with me, as your Dad will be with you .My thoughts are with you.

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  2. Please take your time. I’m so sorry for your loss and think that all the activity and arrangements will have stopped you from grieving properly yet. It will come, and you don’t want to be worrying about us when it does. We’ll understand. Many of us will have been through something similar and understand the form it takes though it hits people in different ways. You will have all the happy memories of your Dad’s life to focus on and the thought that at least he chose his time to go.
    Take great care of yourself.
    xxx Massive Hugs xxx

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  3. Oh Sandra! I am so sorry for your loss… 😢
    Take all the time you need to regroup….
    I’m sure he did wait until he said, in his own way, his final goodbyes xxx

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  4. So sorry for your loss. The death of a parent is never easy. I know having just lost my wonderful Dad too only late last year the shock and loss still remains fresh in my mind. May you and your family find the strength to deal with this loss.

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  5. Stay strong, Sandra, and take all the time you need coming back. It is so difficult to lose any family member. We have all experienced that kind of grief. So very sorry for your loss. Wishing you peace of mind. Hugs. 💔

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  6. IT’s okay to have that loss of feeling anything after the passing of a life. I think it’s our selves reflecting and processing and our minds and our hearts are trying to help us be prepared to grieve. It’s comes on a plethora of wings for all of us. Grief is unique and individual and it’s okay.

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  7. I am sending you my heartfelt condolences. Your dad did know and chose to make the transition while you were there. They know more than we realize. My mother was aware of who was there even to the end. It looks like a coma state but they know. You don’t get over it quickly. Take time to grieve. Your body will thank you. What happens here is not nearly as important. We’ve been there so we understand. If we don’t, that’s our problem.

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  8. Sandra, I have been visiting with other Blogging World members. I’m sorry about the loss of your dad, but glad to know there was some peace regarding the circumstances. I’m checking your follow so I can keep up. When you catch up and have some time to browse freely, come visit me. Meanwhile I will be keeping up with you. I loved the animal video.

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  9. Having just found you fairly recently there’s still a lot of your stuff I haven’t read yet. So your blasts from the pasts are a great way for me to read stuff you wrote that I haven’t read yet without you having to write anything in the now (whew that was mouthful!). I wholly believe you that your dad decided it was the right time. My step-mother-in-law’s mom did the same thing. She waited until my SMIL had left (her brother had arrived to be with their mom) because she knew how devastated she would be had she passed while she was there. She, too, was not alone. Take your time. Blogosphere will be here when you’re ready 🙂


  10. The Dad-Daughter relationship is a special one as our dads, usually unknowingly, represent the ideal for our future husbands. I wrote a letter to my own dearly missed Dad one Father’s Day telling him so. By then I was a mom who was able to see my dad’s best qualities in my daughters’ dad. Now, my husband sees those same qualities in me!
    I’ve noticed that many of your best and most heartfelt recent posts mentioned your dad, so I’d guess you both knew his time was near, and could possibly take some comfort in that shared knowledge.
    In your Blast From the Past post about bullying, I learned, and was surprised to find, that you were an “oops” baby, like my older daughter, which probably made you even more special to your dad. From the sound of that it seems like his life was full and happy so you can let him go from yours peacefully while sharing his memory with us, your loyal followers. Take care. ♥️

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    • Thank you so much for your comment. I always love to read them and this one especially. Yes, he had a fulfilled and happy life. And I can let him go. I do feel a lot of peace. In a way it surprises me and yet it doesn’t. He always gave me that peace and, no doubt, still does. Thank you again for this!

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