Finding My Place

I just finished reading an amazing post written by Erika Kind. It’s about the question if we would do it again. I think we all have slightly different opinions about it. Not everyone would run from the chance to go back in time and change something. Not everyone will tell you that they, no matter what, would do everything the same way again because they are happy with where they are now.

Erika mentions a friend in her post who says that he would head back as he believes that life would take him to the same spot just following another path. It is honestly something I believe in too.

I think that we, no matter what path we choose, eventually end up at the same place. What I’m no so sure about is if we would have the same people in our lives. And that is something that would worry me and where it gets complicated for me.

I think the question about wanting to do something again is not about time travel but more about where you are at in your life. It’s about finding your place in this world, in your life. And I found mine. I’m happy with the people I have in my life and the people I met along my way. I guess if you struggle with where you are, with who you are you most likely would want to go back in time and do something different.

I doubt that anyone would have had only a smooth ride on their journey. Life has a way of throwing things at us. Things that are unpleasant. Things that throw us off, that make us question our ideas, our values, our journey. Obstacles that might be hard to take. But all of it is for a reason. As Erika points out in her post, every single one of those challenges, no matter how exhausting and painful they are, will provide us with something.

They provide us with another little puzzle piece we need in our picture of life or better with building blocks. The more blocks we have the more solid we will get. All those challenges, all the adventures, all the pain, the sorrow, the fear, the exhausted will lead you further. They shape you. They bring you to the person you truly are, the person you are meant to be if you deal with it correctly.

It’s hard when you are in this spiral. It’s hard to see the light, the way out, the chances it offers you. It’s hard to not get dizzy, to not lose track. You stumble, you fall, you get up, you clean yourself up and you walk on, richer then you were before. You have made another experience, you have learned another lesson and it all adds up.

I believe that we all get to that point in life where we realize why it’s all happening, why we had to go through all of it and where it will take us. It’s a fantastic realization. As I said, I’ve found my place. I had my moment when I realized my why and my where. It doesn’t take an excursion to the Himalayas, it can be as simple one morning brushing your teeth and have an aha moment.

I had my aha moment one morning while at home. In a way I felt like a diamond in that moment. Weird, you think? Maybe. But a diamond is not shiny and beautiful from the start. It is not shaped the way it is right away. It goes through a lot of pressure moments, shaping and forming until it shines in its beauty. In a way it’s the same for us too…