Blast From The Past – Writing A New Story

I guess when you are out and about and experience so many new things it automatically makes you think about your past as well. Maybe a little bit. There might be things out there reminding you of something back in your past. There might be scents, those split of moments that take you back to your childhood, your youth, one of the many moments that make up your past. I had so many of those moments over the last weeks. And it makes me realize how much we are made up of our past. How deep it all sits and how much it still is a part of us. We react according to experiences we’ve made. We fear, we crave according to what we have been through.

While we are out there day after day writing the next pages in our book of life, the chapters that are behind us still influence us. It’s up to us if we let them fuel or slow us down. I’d like to share a post I wrote a year back about some similar thoughts today as a Blast Of The Past post. As always I’d love to hear what you think about it…

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Blast From The Past – When You Give Yourself Up

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I’m watching my kids grow up. Sometimes it feels they have changed over night. Become taller, with a changed shape of their bodies. Suddenly they are not the silly kids but more like goofy teenager or pre-teen. I often wonder where has the time gone. How did we get from breastfeeding to that deep voice in a blink of an eye.

And while I sit here wondering about how fast the time between now and them moving out will pass by I think about parenting. About the changes we have already been through. About the sleepless nights and the many “I wish it would be over finally” thoughts. I think about the moments I felt like I gave up on something, on a part of me for being a parent. If you are a parent, you know what I’m talking about.

I think about the many coffees that got cold, the showers I wanted to take in peace, all the moments I went to the bathroom hoping to have a bit of quiet time only to have one or both of the kids barge in. I think abut all the moments feeling like you are no longer in control of your life but they are. I think about the times I felt my identity was lost, feeling like I was “just a mom”, not my own person any longer.  I think about all the moments I felt guilty. Guilty for not playing with them while I was cleaning the house, guilty for not cleaning because I was playing with them. Guilty for being strict and guilty for not being strict. I could go on and on about feeling guilty but it would take over this post…I sit here and think about the thoughts of “what have I given up” but there is one thought that overwrites it: “What have I gained!”

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When you are stuck in those difficult moments, sleep deprived, in desperate need of a shower by yourself it’s hard to see what you gain. But then there is so so much. And isn’t parenting about gain and giving?

I figured I share a post about this with you once again as a Blast From The Past. I hope you enjoy and as always wondering what your thoughts are…

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Me Too

There were a lot of “Me Too” posts going around on Facebook recently and the ones of you who know what it’s all about might agree with me how surprising it was to see the many, many me too’s. For the few of you who might have missed it and have no clue what it is about: It’s about basically putting your hand up if you have ever been sexually assaulted in any way. I had a “me too” to put up as well. I admit my assault is most likely one to simply brush off and yet it crossed a line big time. It was “only” verbally but I still feel sick when thinking about it. I can only imagine how it must feel when you are “properly” assaulted.

In the entire series of “me too” posts I’ve seen one stood out for me. It was the post of one of my newly found friends who shared her thoughts about the responsibility we have as mothers to make sure our sons will not turn into the reason why a woman would say “me too”. She wrote about the responsibility we have to make sure our boys understand where the line is and also that it’s their responsibility as well to protect girls and stand up for them if necessary.

So the responsibility is in our hands. Not only to teach our daughters to stand up for and how to protect themselves but also to teach our sons to be respectful and protective of the girls in their lives. It’s about needing and wanting to the the right thing. Always. So I’d like to express some thoughts I have put out there a couple of months ago about what keeps me on my toes as a parent. But also about all the things influencing our kids and constantly leaving marks. Marks that often need to be addressed but also as often might not even been discovered for way too long.

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Blast From The Past – Outer Layers

Outer layers seem to be incredibly important to a lot of people. While I of course too would like to look my best at all times, I do feel that, unfortunately, often it’s not about who you are and how you treat people, what you have in your mind and in your heart. It’s not about your qualifications but rather about how you present yourself. And often those layers can mess with you. They can paint a wrong picture of who you truly are.

I’d love to share one of my posts from last year about some thoughts in this direction as a Blast From The Past today. I hope you like it…

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What story do the things you wear tell about you?

In short probably that I’m a jeans, t-shirt and yoga pants person… Is that a good thing? Is that how I define my style? Not so sure about that…

I think if what I wear would describe my personality I would most probably be labeled “lost”.

Here is my dilemma: I don’t feel comfortable when shopping for cloths. I often wonder if I truly have a style. And what it is… I like my jeans, I like my t-shirts, I like my yoga pants. And at the same time I like my dresses, my skirts, my heels. Problem is, that I wear jeans, t-shirts and yoga pants 90% of the time. Or even more…

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Blast From The Past – About Growing Up And Letting Go

Ever day I look at my children and see how much they have changed. I embrace the cuddles, the kisses, the coming over in the night because they had a nightmare. I know that I need to embrace those moments as the kids grow up and soon they will not need me in the same way anymore. Totally fine, totally normal. And yet a lesson that I have to learn and get adjusted to. I’d like to share this post about my thoughts I had about the same thing a couple of months ago once again as a Blast Of The Past.

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Blast From The Past – Work In Progress

When you are out and about you will see them. People. Doing stuff. Things you would do differently. Maybe you even judge. Because it’s oh so in our nature to do so. You watch and you might think “I’d never to this”, “I’d say that”. And then one day it dawns to you: You just did!

Or you ear drop on people making remarks about others in regards to how they do things wrong and how they, of course, would never do that…

Happens to me all the time. And actually just recently again. So I thought I share my thoughts in form of a Blast From The Past and hope you enjoy…

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Blast From The Past – Who Will Go Further

“And where do your kids go to school?” It’s a question I hear pretty quickly when having a conversation with another mom while waiting at one of the kids activities. Well… with the ones I have not met yet ;-). We then chat about the homeschooling path we chose and about the school they picked. Today was no different.
One thing was different than usual though. While we were talking about our different approaches, the conversations quickly changed to how lucky we are that we had the education we got and the one we are able to offer to our children. We had this realization that we are actually very blessed, that our children are also lucky to grow up in an environment where education is possible for everyone. And this made me think of the following post that I’d like to share again today as a Blast From The Past.

I grew up in a nice environment. My parents loved each other, we had a nice house, everything we wanted to have, always enough food on the table and a cozy bed to sleep in. We also lived in a safe country with good schools. Education was never something to worry about. It was just normal.

When something is normal you usually don’t appreciate it enough. It’s just there. We headed to school, spent the day there learning with new books and from supportive, motivated and good teachers. Well… most of the time. Some of them seemed to be over it. Looking back now, knowing what can go on in other parts of this world, it was a so called luxury problem. They were still all amazing and we for sure always walked away with more knowledge than we had before.

It’s not a given.

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Blast From The Past – Legalize Or Not? What Makes The Difference?

Do you have this thing called “Dry July” as well? The challenge to not drink alcohol for the entire month of July? Well, we do down here. And I decided to try to tackle it. And while I realize how much I enjoy my glass of wine in the evening and also how I feel like I miss it at the moment, it also makes me think about what addiction actually is. It’s not only physical. It’s mental as well. My body doesn’t react cold turkey style but my mind challenges me every evening when I sit down on the sofa. It challenges me in asking for that glass of wine every time our dinner is served. A good lesson to learn and a great challenge to go through. Not to speak of the realization that comes with all of this. So I decided to share a Blast From The Past in regards to drugs today…

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